Today was a strange day. i got accepted into a honors program in my college. and i was happy that i academically succeeded. but all of the sudden, my long time friend hit me up in fb.
he wasnt the best type of a person. he did alot of bad things. i was worried about him. but seems like i didnt have to.
he’s also going to college and has matured alot. and i was glad for him. he was able to exprience different worlds. the stuidous part and also the partying part. he lived he’s life. but what about me?
its not really jealousy. its more self assesment. ive been focused on school so much, which wasnt really true either because i always slacked off, that i never got to enjoy any other aspect excpet school. so really have i lived my life?
i only had one side of life, which was just basically at home doing what i should be doing. its not a bad thing. but its not a good thing either. so in college im going to try to overcome those boundaires i set for myself before. in order to improve myself, im going to enjoy any exprience i can get. i need to start risking some stuffs. i need to see more stuffs.
this will be my last post for awhile. im going to focus on what’s important to me which is music and school. so until next time, i’ll see you guys later.
